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Anonymous said...

do whatever you intend or feel to do.i believe you've got a lot to show.i believe you can do it. that's why i gave you the luxury of TIME and SPACE that you need for it.
it's not true that from the start I always expected you to be mad or what. I didn't expect you to be that bad to me,so I was always hurt. But one day I just saw myself already immuned with your attitude. That made me EITHER fight with you OR disregard your tantrums--not let myself get affected by it. I'm sorry if those "efforts" were lost. I just felt I've had enough of it. So it is now your turn. And besides, it's your TASK. You are still the guy. Now, what do you really want to happen? What are you really asking for? If it's chance, fine. But I think it'd be better to start from scratch again. I've already realized what I needed to realize--if you're gonna ask me what those things are,the space here won't be enough. Well I think "START FROM SCRATCH" tells it all. BTW,i've been reading your blog since DAY 1,even if after several readings, I told myself to stop checking on it. But I couldn't resist the excitement to know what's new. However,don't think that my posts are my "answers" to your posts. I write what I feel on each day. I even didn't expect that you'd be reading it. You didn't have time for it before, did you? THe "Home" post,too.FYI,I was the first one who made a draft of that post. I've already drafted it the morning of that day you posted yours.I decided to post it the next day not to insult you, but to tell something about my DREAM that night---that you came home and I accepted you at your first call on my name. Wavelength, still, isn't it? That song is not yours. So anyone could post it anywhere they want to.
Wishing and hoping are not bad, but it would be better if you do something about those wishes and hopes.
This is enough. I have to sleep. I'm happy for what you have become in the last two weeks. I just hope you would continue to make yourself better. I will, too. P.S.I gave back that phone to tell you that we could not solve our problem through talking over the phone, that I (and you) could live without calling each other everyday, and that I'm ready to detach myself from you anytime--if I really have to, or if I get tired of waiting for you. You may delete this comment after reading it.
----from the one whom you are talking to

May 29, 2008 at 1:46 AM

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