I just dont like the idea of switching teams, being a fan of this one then the other one the next year because thier better and your team lost, then choose again another when there is another team who is much better. I like the idea of sticking just to one team. It will feel more exciting to really be a fan of a team for a long time and then they won it all. It would be as if you really are a part of them i guessed. Kind of like the idea of those Ginebra Fans - some even since birth.
I was a fan of the Portland TrailBlazers when I became a true NBA fan. That team was composed of Arvydas Sabonis, Scottie Pippen, Rasheed Wallace (now Detroit), Steve Smith, Damon Stoudamire, Detlef Schremf (not sure bout the spelling), Brian Grant, etc. I really like that team. I think it was 1999 - 2001.
Then I became a fan of the Mighty but Fragile Sacramento Kings from 2001 - 2004. That team composed of Chris Webber, Vlade Divac, Peja Stojakovic, Dough Christie and Mike Bibby with Bobby Jackson, etc
I really like those team until they broke up.
Now I have been a fan of the Detroit Pistons since 2004 when they became NBA champions. I like sheed (Wallace) at that time and really hate Shaq that is why I rooted for them in the NBA Finals against the LAkers. Hate Shaq until now - ruined Phoenix.
Since that NBA Finals I have liked the Pistons. They haven't change much of their lineup since then. Only Ben Wallace is not with them today. Their core is intact. So as long as not much change be made, I remain a Pistons fan. They may have their revamp. They might have major overhaul. I'll wait for it and see then I'll decide if I'll stay or if I'll go - to where I do not know that is why it is more likely that I'll be loyal.
Keeping Flip or Flipping? I like Flip, he has carried this pistons to three conference finals appearance - only to lose. Kind of disappointing. That is why his job is in jeopardy. I'll just wait what will happen. What Joe Dumars (the man) will do. If Flip stays I'll be happy. If he goes I bid him goodluck and thanks and hope his replacement would surpass his underachievements.
The Core? Keep Rip, Tayshaun, - they'll be there for quite some time. Billups is good. Keep him maybe, can be traded if there is a great deal. But most likely keep him. Rasheed - still good but should have someone to replace him in the rotation, maybe someone who is younger, stronger. Not sure if he should still start. Keep him. McDyess, keep him. Very good role player. Have someone replace him in the starting lineup. Much better off the bench.
The Bench? Untouchables: Rodney Stuckey - up and coming. Jason Maxielle - heck of a player.
Team must have? True Center. Sheed is a power forward. McDyess is PF - great off the bench. Three Point Threat. Someone who has a lot of energy - Energizer. Someone to give them boost when having droughts. Someone like Manu. Great Young Guys - someone to continue the legacy.
Who Should be Kept? Joe Dumars is a lock. He should be there for decades. He is a hell of a general manager / president of BO.
Saturday, May 31, 2008
SAD - Dream Matchup
Super
Asar
Detroit
Detroit Pistons just got eliminated in the NBA playoffs to the eventual eastern conference champs Boston Celtics - who will face the LA Lakers, the werstern conference champs.
It was kind of like a dream match up of the two squads who have been rivals in the 1980's. It will surely be phenomenal.
The loss wasn't really that much disappointing. The Celtics have been favored to win the NBA title from DAY 1 - from the acquisition of Kevin Garnett. It's just that the pistons are once again in that position but just cant finish.
I think it will still be fun. I also liked the celtics - a lot of people do. I like Kevin Garnett even in his days in Minneapolis. I like Ray Allen - the sweetest shooter in the league for years now since the departure of Reggie Miller. I dont like Paul Pierce back then when he was the lone star of Boston - he is a ball hagger, trigger happy. I like him now though. I liked how he changed his game. I like now the way he shares the ball. He is I think Mr. Celtics right now. I like Boston Celtics as a whole - their lineup.
The Enemy: LA Lakers
Kobe Bryant. LA is Kobe. Kobe is LA. Nobody would disagree, I guess. Kobe is Kobe. He is the man. This is his team. What more can I say - a lot more. I think that it really is his team now. He has somehow became their leader and not just their superstar. Back then it was a debate of who's team it is. Shaq's or Kobe's. I think it was LA's. Nobody should own the Lakers except Dr. Buss and the people of LA. No, really. What I am trying to emphasize is that Kobe is the leader of this team. Without him the team cant win the NBA Finals. They might not even be in the playoffs by the way. Now that he has a lot of support - super support from the likes of Pau Gasol, Lamar Odom, Derek Fisher and the rest of the guys. I think they could win it all. I also like kobe. I just hated shaq back then (and always) that is why I did not become a fan of the lakers. Now I like the lakers.
Boston or LA?
I like both teams. Both teams have their stars. Both have talent. Both have depth. Both is hungry for a championship. Both is aggressive.
I want to take the side of the celtics because I have been their fan since Day 1 (its just that I want to be loyal to the pistons of which I have been a fan of since 2004 when they beat LA in the Finals) and they are the ones who beat Detroit. It is a rule among players to root for the team who beats you and pray that they win it all so could say - the champs are the ones who beat us.
But after thinking for sometime, I decided to take no sides. I'll just watch and enjoy the game. I am a Pistons fan - until their core disband but until then I'll be loyal.
No body knows who will win it all. I like the idea of both winning the title.
Kobe and Derek Fisher of LA already won it thrice. James Posey of the Celtics won it once - with the Heat. The other player is Cassel - with Houston when he was a rookie.
Maybe they'll continue this rivalry until the end of this decade. I hope not - Go Pistons Go.
Asar
Detroit
Detroit Pistons just got eliminated in the NBA playoffs to the eventual eastern conference champs Boston Celtics - who will face the LA Lakers, the werstern conference champs.
It was kind of like a dream match up of the two squads who have been rivals in the 1980's. It will surely be phenomenal.
The loss wasn't really that much disappointing. The Celtics have been favored to win the NBA title from DAY 1 - from the acquisition of Kevin Garnett. It's just that the pistons are once again in that position but just cant finish.
I think it will still be fun. I also liked the celtics - a lot of people do. I like Kevin Garnett even in his days in Minneapolis. I like Ray Allen - the sweetest shooter in the league for years now since the departure of Reggie Miller. I dont like Paul Pierce back then when he was the lone star of Boston - he is a ball hagger, trigger happy. I like him now though. I liked how he changed his game. I like now the way he shares the ball. He is I think Mr. Celtics right now. I like Boston Celtics as a whole - their lineup.
The Enemy: LA Lakers
Kobe Bryant. LA is Kobe. Kobe is LA. Nobody would disagree, I guess. Kobe is Kobe. He is the man. This is his team. What more can I say - a lot more. I think that it really is his team now. He has somehow became their leader and not just their superstar. Back then it was a debate of who's team it is. Shaq's or Kobe's. I think it was LA's. Nobody should own the Lakers except Dr. Buss and the people of LA. No, really. What I am trying to emphasize is that Kobe is the leader of this team. Without him the team cant win the NBA Finals. They might not even be in the playoffs by the way. Now that he has a lot of support - super support from the likes of Pau Gasol, Lamar Odom, Derek Fisher and the rest of the guys. I think they could win it all. I also like kobe. I just hated shaq back then (and always) that is why I did not become a fan of the lakers. Now I like the lakers.
Boston or LA?
I like both teams. Both teams have their stars. Both have talent. Both have depth. Both is hungry for a championship. Both is aggressive.
I want to take the side of the celtics because I have been their fan since Day 1 (its just that I want to be loyal to the pistons of which I have been a fan of since 2004 when they beat LA in the Finals) and they are the ones who beat Detroit. It is a rule among players to root for the team who beats you and pray that they win it all so could say - the champs are the ones who beat us.
But after thinking for sometime, I decided to take no sides. I'll just watch and enjoy the game. I am a Pistons fan - until their core disband but until then I'll be loyal.
No body knows who will win it all. I like the idea of both winning the title.
Kobe and Derek Fisher of LA already won it thrice. James Posey of the Celtics won it once - with the Heat. The other player is Cassel - with Houston when he was a rookie.
Maybe they'll continue this rivalry until the end of this decade. I hope not - Go Pistons Go.
Still Sick
Today is saturday - almost 5:00PM. Way beyond the working hours (no overtime on saturday - working hrs from 7:00am - 4:00pm only). I am still here at the office. Working. Not quite but still I am here. I should have been in bed by now. Resting. Relaxing.
I am still sick. Its been three days that I have been like this. I have dry cough and also feeling a little hot - as in having a fever. But I am still here. Waiting for my last concrete pouring. There should have been none - it should have been stopped earlier because the workers no longer want to continue, too tired. So am I. But my boss doesn't want to. He has a point. I understand that if we're not going to continue today, we will be delayed in our schedule.
I think my streak of BL is starting once again. The pumpcrete have another problem while I was pouring on slab. Luckily I was able to finish that area. It must have been a disaster had I not. But the pumpcrete can no longer transfer location and needs to go back to the batching plant for repairs, so I was left with my colmuns not poured.
We explained it to our boss but he still wants us to continue. He said that we could use the crane. We could, but our workers doesn't want to continue. I asked my capataz to persuade his workers, after much negotiation they agreed. But, our EIC (Equipment-In-Charge) told me that the crane cant operate in that area because there were many obstructions.
Now, I just want to pour on to the main entrance slab and finish it as quickly as possible. The mixer is not yet on site. Still have to wait a little longer.
I want to have a good rest now. I am the one assigned to work tomorrow and I really need that rest. whoo...
I am still sick. Its been three days that I have been like this. I have dry cough and also feeling a little hot - as in having a fever. But I am still here. Waiting for my last concrete pouring. There should have been none - it should have been stopped earlier because the workers no longer want to continue, too tired. So am I. But my boss doesn't want to. He has a point. I understand that if we're not going to continue today, we will be delayed in our schedule.
I think my streak of BL is starting once again. The pumpcrete have another problem while I was pouring on slab. Luckily I was able to finish that area. It must have been a disaster had I not. But the pumpcrete can no longer transfer location and needs to go back to the batching plant for repairs, so I was left with my colmuns not poured.
We explained it to our boss but he still wants us to continue. He said that we could use the crane. We could, but our workers doesn't want to continue. I asked my capataz to persuade his workers, after much negotiation they agreed. But, our EIC (Equipment-In-Charge) told me that the crane cant operate in that area because there were many obstructions.
Now, I just want to pour on to the main entrance slab and finish it as quickly as possible. The mixer is not yet on site. Still have to wait a little longer.
I want to have a good rest now. I am the one assigned to work tomorrow and I really need that rest. whoo...
Friday, May 30, 2008
International High IQ Society
Hehehe!!!
Just kind of having fun during my free time. I tried this IQ test online from the International High IQ Society. To become a member, you need to score above 124 (IQ rating). I took the test and after completing the 36 question test I got a rating of 117. Woah!!! I though that maybe if I try again I will have a better result because I assumed that the questions wont change. If that is the case I will find the questions easier compared to when I first took it. So I did. Once again I took the test but to my surprise, none of the first subtest (6 questions) is similar to what I took earlier. So I thought that these are just random questions among a list of many questions. There were some that was repeated, 4 or 5 questions maybe. I finsihed the exam and got a result of 128. YEHEY!!! I passed. I can now become a member of this society. But!!! To my surprise once again, there is a lifetime membership fee of minimum $79 payable thru credit card - i don't have one. I still want to be a member though so when I have my credit card I will join this society, for what reason - none.
Just kind of having fun during my free time. I tried this IQ test online from the International High IQ Society. To become a member, you need to score above 124 (IQ rating). I took the test and after completing the 36 question test I got a rating of 117. Woah!!! I though that maybe if I try again I will have a better result because I assumed that the questions wont change. If that is the case I will find the questions easier compared to when I first took it. So I did. Once again I took the test but to my surprise, none of the first subtest (6 questions) is similar to what I took earlier. So I thought that these are just random questions among a list of many questions. There were some that was repeated, 4 or 5 questions maybe. I finsihed the exam and got a result of 128. YEHEY!!! I passed. I can now become a member of this society. But!!! To my surprise once again, there is a lifetime membership fee of minimum $79 payable thru credit card - i don't have one. I still want to be a member though so when I have my credit card I will join this society, for what reason - none.
142
That is my IQ according to iqtest.com. Their test was not that hard. Really just to measure the IQ. Use only your common sense. But the difference in this test than the other test I encountered is that they consider the time you spent in answering their questions.
I am not sure if this IQ rating is high enough and this may not really be accurate for me because of what happened when I was answering it. Our internet connection was suddenly cut when I just finish the test that resulted in me taking another test. Of course, I have already read the test and I just remember my answers to it therefore I have a faster time this time than when I first took the test so it may have affected my reatings. Anyways, I just did it for fun...
"Intelligence alone is not enough to measure a man's worth"
I am not sure if this IQ rating is high enough and this may not really be accurate for me because of what happened when I was answering it. Our internet connection was suddenly cut when I just finish the test that resulted in me taking another test. Of course, I have already read the test and I just remember my answers to it therefore I have a faster time this time than when I first took the test so it may have affected my reatings. Anyways, I just did it for fun...
"Intelligence alone is not enough to measure a man's worth"
Im Sick
I am very sick right now
Cant even move my fingers
every joints hurts
my throat is really itching
my legs just dont want to be straightened
i dont even want to stand
especially walk
walk up the hill
its really hard
i wish to rest but i just cant
so many work to do
if i am not here
what would happen?
maybe something
worse is nothing
and i dont want to be blamed for nothing
i want to sleep
i just want to rest
i am sick of being sick
cure me...
Cant even move my fingers
every joints hurts
my throat is really itching
my legs just dont want to be straightened
i dont even want to stand
especially walk
walk up the hill
its really hard
i wish to rest but i just cant
so many work to do
if i am not here
what would happen?
maybe something
worse is nothing
and i dont want to be blamed for nothing
i want to sleep
i just want to rest
i am sick of being sick
cure me...
Thursday, May 29, 2008
Streak Ends
Is this my luckyday?
Woke up early
attended toolbox
pumpcrete available
batching plant operational
- they even texted me what time i want them to mobilize, kinda weird
pouring flawless
correct volume
is this my lucky day?
maybe, maybe not
but one thing is for sure
my bad luck streak ends
will my good luck streak starts
maybe, maybe not
is this my lucky day?
not quite, detroit lost...
Woke up early
attended toolbox
pumpcrete available
batching plant operational
- they even texted me what time i want them to mobilize, kinda weird
pouring flawless
correct volume
is this my lucky day?
maybe, maybe not
but one thing is for sure
my bad luck streak ends
will my good luck streak starts
maybe, maybe not
is this my lucky day?
not quite, detroit lost...
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
Boracay's Highest Point
I think that Boracay Island's highest elevation is at Mount Luho - haven't been there yet. We have been planning on going there for months now but still we have no time for it. I've heard that the view there is astonishing because you can have a view of the whole island of boracay.
I hope that we may find time to go there, maybe with YOU - again (hopefully). But for now I'll settle with this view taken from our project's elevated water tank (Alta Vista de Boracay), which I think is the highest point now in Boracay.
Enjoy!!!
Sorry for the weird faces, sounds especially when I burfed. I was kind of having a bad stomach that day as stated in my other posts. Sorry also for the unstable video, it was really scary up there and it is really windy. Kind of like the thrill though...
I hope that we may find time to go there, maybe with YOU - again (hopefully). But for now I'll settle with this view taken from our project's elevated water tank (Alta Vista de Boracay), which I think is the highest point now in Boracay.
Enjoy!!!
Sorry for the weird faces, sounds especially when I burfed. I was kind of having a bad stomach that day as stated in my other posts. Sorry also for the unstable video, it was really scary up there and it is really windy. Kind of like the thrill though...
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BL Streak Never Ends
Pumpcrete Clogged
Clog removed
Batching Plant broke down
Batching Plant Repaired
Pumpcrete Engine Broke down
not yet repaired...
Oh Blanc when
when will you be completed...
Clog removed
Batching Plant broke down
Batching Plant Repaired
Pumpcrete Engine Broke down
not yet repaired...
Oh Blanc when
when will you be completed...
W-A-G
Mahal kita...
lam mo ba yun?
Bakit ka nagdududa?
Bakit ka nagtatanong?
Di mo ba ramdam?
O ayaw mo lang paniwalaan?
Tama na to pwede ba?
Miss na kita sobra!
Ayaw pa rin kitang kausapin...
Di rin naman maayos ang gusot!!!
Di rin to maayos
gaya nga ng sabi mo
kelangan makita mo muna ko
bago natin maayos to
Kaya tsaka na lang ako magpapaliwanag
tsaka na lang ako makikipag-usap
lalo lang gugulo pag pinipilit
at minamadali mga gusto nating mangyari
lalo lang tayong nayayari
mahal kita alam mo ba?
sana naman maniwala ka
sana maniwala ka pa...
lam mo ba yun?
Bakit ka nagdududa?
Bakit ka nagtatanong?
Di mo ba ramdam?
O ayaw mo lang paniwalaan?
Tama na to pwede ba?
Miss na kita sobra!
Ayaw pa rin kitang kausapin...
Di rin naman maayos ang gusot!!!
Di rin to maayos
gaya nga ng sabi mo
kelangan makita mo muna ko
bago natin maayos to
Kaya tsaka na lang ako magpapaliwanag
tsaka na lang ako makikipag-usap
lalo lang gugulo pag pinipilit
at minamadali mga gusto nating mangyari
lalo lang tayong nayayari
mahal kita alam mo ba?
sana naman maniwala ka
sana maniwala ka pa...
Always Be My Baby
We were as one babe
For a moment in time
And it seemed everlasting
That you would always be mine
Now you want to be free
So I'm letting you fly
Cause I know in my heart babe
Our love will never die
No!
You'll always be a part of me
I'm a part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
I ain't gonna cry no
And I won't beg you to stay
If you're determined to leave girl
I will not stand in your way
But inevitably you'll be back again
Cause ya know in your heart babe
Our love will never end no
You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
I know that you'll be back girl
When your days and your nights get a little bit colder oooohhh
I know that, you'll be right back, babe
Ooooh! baby believe me it's only a matter of time
You'll always be apart of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my my baby....
You'll always be apart of me (you will always be)
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on (we will linger on....)
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
Always be my baby
For a moment in time
And it seemed everlasting
That you would always be mine
Now you want to be free
So I'm letting you fly
Cause I know in my heart babe
Our love will never die
No!
You'll always be a part of me
I'm a part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
I ain't gonna cry no
And I won't beg you to stay
If you're determined to leave girl
I will not stand in your way
But inevitably you'll be back again
Cause ya know in your heart babe
Our love will never end no
You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
I know that you'll be back girl
When your days and your nights get a little bit colder oooohhh
I know that, you'll be right back, babe
Ooooh! baby believe me it's only a matter of time
You'll always be apart of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my my baby....
You'll always be apart of me (you will always be)
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on (we will linger on....)
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
Always be my baby
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
Songs songs songs - for YOU
HERE WITHOUT YOU
A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same
But all the miles that separate
Disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face
I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight it's only you and me
The miles just keep rollin'
As the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
But I hope that it gets better as we go
I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it's only you and me
Everything I know, and anywhere I go
It gets hard but it wont take away my love
And when the last one falls
When it's all said and done
It gets hard but it wont take away my love
I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it's only you and me
FAR AWAY - nickelback
This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know, you know, you know
I love you
I've loved you all along
I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
And you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore
On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of Hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything, but I won't give up
'Cause you know, you know, you know
That I love you
I loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
And you'd never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore
So far away
So far away
Far away for far too long
So far away
So far away
Far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know
I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
I love you
I loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me,and never let me go
Keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me, never let me go
WAY BACK INTO LOVE - Hugh Grant and Drew Barrymore
I've been living with a shadow overhead,A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same
But all the miles that separate
Disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face
I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight it's only you and me
The miles just keep rollin'
As the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
But I hope that it gets better as we go
I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it's only you and me
Everything I know, and anywhere I go
It gets hard but it wont take away my love
And when the last one falls
When it's all said and done
It gets hard but it wont take away my love
I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it's only you and me
FAR AWAY - nickelback
This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know, you know, you know
I love you
I've loved you all along
I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
And you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore
On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of Hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything, but I won't give up
'Cause you know, you know, you know
That I love you
I loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
And you'd never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore
So far away
So far away
Far away for far too long
So far away
So far away
Far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know
I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
I love you
I loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me,and never let me go
Keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me, never let me go
WAY BACK INTO LOVE - Hugh Grant and Drew Barrymore
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed,
I've been lonely for so long,
Trapped in the past,
I just can't seem to move on!
(Hugh Grant)
I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away,
Just in case I ever need them again someday,
I've been setting aside time,
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind!
[Chorus]
(Both)
All I want to do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
Oooooh.
[Verse 2]
(Drew Barrymore)
I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine,
I've been searching but i just don't see the signs,
I know that it's out there,
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere!
(Hugh Grant)
I've been looking for someone to shed some light,
Not somebody just to get me through the night,
I could use some direction,
And I'm open to your suggestions.
[Chorus]
(Both)
All I want to do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
And if I open my heart again,
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end!
Oooooooh, Ooooooh, Ooooooh.
[Middle-eight]
(Drew Barrymore)
There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation
[Chorus]
(Both)
All I want to do is find a way back into love,
I can't make it through without a way back into love,
And if I open my heart to you,
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do,
And if you help me to start again,
You know that I'll be there for you in the end!
Oooooooh. Oooooooh. Ooooooooh. Oooooooh. Ooooooh Ooooooooh. Ooooooooh.
BL Streak Continues
Yesterday, I was very eager to pour concrete on my slab that's been waiting for days now. I asked the batching plant to mobilize the pumpcrete on their first hour of work so I could finish early only to find out that they are doing some repairs. (1) Damn!
It was past lunchtime when I was told that the pumpcrete repair is done and they immediately mobilized the pumpcrete to our site. Immediately, I ordered 51cum of concrete. Suddenly, I heard my capataz radioed our EIC (equipment-in-charge) to pull off or repair the Skid Loader which happened to broke down in the middle of the road where the mixers should pass through. (2) Damn!
It was not until the second mixer arrived when the skid loader was fixed. The process continued without flaw and so we left it for our leadman to handle. Me and my capataz went to attend the staff meeting. When the 51st cum was delivered, batching plant called us and asked if we are going to order another load. Being away from the area being poured, I just asked my capataz for the status of the on-going pouring and from there I based my last load of concrete. At first, I told him to order 4cum more then he radioed, "isang load pa". Whoah!!! Wait!!! 1 more load means 6-7cum of concrete and I only need 4cum. I asked my capataz the status and he said that there is 1 and a half span still to be poured so I told him to proceed with our last load.
After the meeting, I hurriedly went to the area and to my surprise the whole slab area is completely poured plus 2 out of 6 columns were also poured. I immediately computed for the remaining volume of concrete to be poured and found out that I only need around 3.5cum. I still have 1 load of 7cum. Where should I pour the remaining 3.5cum? (3) Damn!
Note: 1cum of concrete costs around 5k - 5.5k. If I wont be able to find an area for my concrete to be used I'd be wasting more or less 16k pesos. Shit!!! I might get fired if they find out. Anyways, I was able to put it somewhere, not really intended for it but at least I salvaged some value from that concrete and not just put it to waste. Where? Secret!!!
Today, I am about to pour another slab area. Early morning I texted the PIC of batching plant only to find out again, that the pumpcrete is being repaired. (4) Damn!!! I guessed I was kind of luckier yesterday than I was today since I was still able to pour unlike now where I just sat down on a chair, write nonsense and endless blogs.
I also think that this day is worse since my stomach is worse than it was yesterday.
I hope tomorrow's gonna be fine.
It was past lunchtime when I was told that the pumpcrete repair is done and they immediately mobilized the pumpcrete to our site. Immediately, I ordered 51cum of concrete. Suddenly, I heard my capataz radioed our EIC (equipment-in-charge) to pull off or repair the Skid Loader which happened to broke down in the middle of the road where the mixers should pass through. (2) Damn!
It was not until the second mixer arrived when the skid loader was fixed. The process continued without flaw and so we left it for our leadman to handle. Me and my capataz went to attend the staff meeting. When the 51st cum was delivered, batching plant called us and asked if we are going to order another load. Being away from the area being poured, I just asked my capataz for the status of the on-going pouring and from there I based my last load of concrete. At first, I told him to order 4cum more then he radioed, "isang load pa". Whoah!!! Wait!!! 1 more load means 6-7cum of concrete and I only need 4cum. I asked my capataz the status and he said that there is 1 and a half span still to be poured so I told him to proceed with our last load.
After the meeting, I hurriedly went to the area and to my surprise the whole slab area is completely poured plus 2 out of 6 columns were also poured. I immediately computed for the remaining volume of concrete to be poured and found out that I only need around 3.5cum. I still have 1 load of 7cum. Where should I pour the remaining 3.5cum? (3) Damn!
Note: 1cum of concrete costs around 5k - 5.5k. If I wont be able to find an area for my concrete to be used I'd be wasting more or less 16k pesos. Shit!!! I might get fired if they find out. Anyways, I was able to put it somewhere, not really intended for it but at least I salvaged some value from that concrete and not just put it to waste. Where? Secret!!!
Today, I am about to pour another slab area. Early morning I texted the PIC of batching plant only to find out again, that the pumpcrete is being repaired. (4) Damn!!! I guessed I was kind of luckier yesterday than I was today since I was still able to pour unlike now where I just sat down on a chair, write nonsense and endless blogs.
I also think that this day is worse since my stomach is worse than it was yesterday.
I hope tomorrow's gonna be fine.
It hurts
What has been happening in me
for days now really hurts.
It hurts from the inside out.
Ouch!!! Ahhhhhh!!!
It hurts so much I wanna cry.
The way its been hurting...
make me feel unwanting to move.
I cant do anything unless this pain subsides...
So uneasy
So uncomfortable
Makes me worry
Makes me hurry
Help...
Title: Bad Stomach - By engineertopak
for days now really hurts.
It hurts from the inside out.
Ouch!!! Ahhhhhh!!!
It hurts so much I wanna cry.
The way its been hurting...
make me feel unwanting to move.
I cant do anything unless this pain subsides...
So uneasy
So uncomfortable
Makes me worry
Makes me hurry
Help...
Title: Bad Stomach - By engineertopak
Sunday Madness - Corny Songs but True
THE PAST
And you must forgive me too
It`s the only thing that`s left
that we haven`t try to do
One thing that I`m sure will work
That we haven`t tried before
Let`s not bring the past back anymore
I DRIVE MYSELF CRAZY - N sync
I drive myself crazy (I drive myself crazy, crazy, crazy...yeah)
Drive myself crazy
Made a mistake
Let you go baby
I drive myself crazy
Wanting you the way that I do
I drive myself crazy
wanting you the way that I do
SOMEWHERE DOWN THE ROAD
We had the right love at the wrong time
Guess I always knew inside
I wouldn't have you for a long time
Those dreams of yours
Are shining on distant shores
And if they're calling you away
I have no right to make you stay
But somewhere down the road
Our roads are gonna cross again
It doesn't really matter when
But somewhere down the road
I know that heart of yours will come to see
That you belong with me
Sometimes "goodbyes" are not forever
It doesn't matter if you're gone
I still believe in us together
I understand more than you think I can
You have to go out on your own
So you can find your way back home
And somewhere down the road
Our roads are gonna cross again
It doesn't really matter where
But somewhere down the road
I know that heart of yours will come to see
That you belong with me
Letting go
Is just another way to say
I'll always love you so
We had the right love at the wrong time
Maybe we've only just begun
Maybe the best is yet to come
'Cause somewhere down the road
Our roads are gonna cross again
It doesn't really matter when
But somewhere down the road
I know that heart of yours will come to see
That you belong with me
I was wrong when I hurt you
But did you have to hurt me too
Did you think revenge will make it better?
I don`t care about the past
I just want our love to last
There`s a way to bring us back together
I must forgive you
You must forgive me too
If we wanna try to put things back
the way they used to be
`Cause there`s no sense in going over and over
The same things as before
So let`s not bring the past up anymore
Out of all the good we had
You only keep track of the bad
Though you knew I never really loved her
Didn`t anyone tell you yet
That to forgive is to forget
How can you be mad if you don`t remember
And you must forgive me too
It`s the only thing that`s left
that we haven`t try to do
One thing that I`m sure will work
That we haven`t tried before
Let`s not bring the past back anymore
Ooooh....
Lying in your arms
So close together
Didn't know just what I had
Now I toss and turn
Cause I'm without you
How I'm missing you so bad
Where was my head?
Where was my heart?
Now I cry alone in the dark
I lie awake
I drive myself crazy
Drive myself crazy
Thinking of you
Made a mistake
When I let you go baby
I drive myself crazy
Wanting you the way that I do (wanting you the way that I do)
I was such a fool
I couldn't see it
Just how good you were to me (Just how good you were to me)
You confessed your love ( You confessed your love)
Undying devotion
I confessed my need to be free
And now I'm left
With all this pain
I've only got myself to blame
Repeat Chorus
Why didn't I know it
(How much I loved you baby)
Why couldn't show it
(If I had only told you)
When I had the chance
Oh I had the chance
oohhhhhh....la la la la la la
I drive myself crazy'
ahhh..oh so crazy
lalalalala...oh oh oh oh
I lie awake
I drive myself crazy
Drive myself crazy
Thinking of you
Made a mistake (made a mistake)
Let you go baby
I drive myself crazy
Wanting you the way that I do
I drive myself crazy (I drive myself crazy, crazy, crazy...yeah)
Drive myself crazy
Made a mistake
Let you go baby
I drive myself crazy
Wanting you the way that I do
I drive myself crazy
wanting you the way that I do
SOMEWHERE DOWN THE ROAD
We had the right love at the wrong time
Guess I always knew inside
I wouldn't have you for a long time
Those dreams of yours
Are shining on distant shores
And if they're calling you away
I have no right to make you stay
But somewhere down the road
Our roads are gonna cross again
It doesn't really matter when
But somewhere down the road
I know that heart of yours will come to see
That you belong with me
Sometimes "goodbyes" are not forever
It doesn't matter if you're gone
I still believe in us together
I understand more than you think I can
You have to go out on your own
So you can find your way back home
And somewhere down the road
Our roads are gonna cross again
It doesn't really matter where
But somewhere down the road
I know that heart of yours will come to see
That you belong with me
Letting go
Is just another way to say
I'll always love you so
We had the right love at the wrong time
Maybe we've only just begun
Maybe the best is yet to come
'Cause somewhere down the road
Our roads are gonna cross again
It doesn't really matter when
But somewhere down the road
I know that heart of yours will come to see
That you belong with me
Inuman at Puca
After the around-the-island tour, we went to Puca Beach. We (DMCI - Alta Vista) have a hut there and that is where we will have our inuman session.
First, we ate - too early for dinner, too heavy for merienda so i dont know what it is called.
The foods: Lechon Baboy, Sugpo (Big Shrimps), Calamares, Alimango and Talaba.
The Booze: Just 10 case of San Mig Light.
It was just around five in the afternoon when we started the session. There was nothing to do except for some chit-chat with no particular topic. Some of us slept - too tired of swimming. Mac and I listen to some music from his phone. There is very little to do - kind of boring.
Until...the videoke machine arrived. Then the party started to become lively just like what a party should be like. All of us picked a song except for manang Angie. Well, I did not pick mine, they just gave me the songs that they want me to sing - the first one being "the past". Hehehe!!!
It was sunday night so I am controlling my alcohol intake so I can attend the toolbox meeting the day after and a least not be late. I am still able to gulped 7 SMLs, I think that is moderate enough compared to Mac's more or less than 14 bottles - including 3 straight bottoms up in his last bottles).
Mac was really drunk that when he got a hold of the microphone, he never wants to let it go. He never want others to sing. He also showers us with his beers that prompted me to go out of the hut. It was kind of shameful what he's been doing since our PIC (boss) and her GF is with us.
We went home past 11:00pm. Mac is still very drunk that he is already shouting inside the Crosswind (we're with PIC). When we got off the car, he even punched the back door of the car and I think PIC kind of made a remark like PI for what mac has done. It is fortunate that he was able to keep his cool - maybe because his GF is there to calm him.
When we got home, I immediately went to bath. I have not yet taken a bath since the day before and there are salts in my skin. I havent even rinsed myself after the snorkling. The others went to sleep. They're like yucky - to sleep with all the salts still in their skin. Hahaha!!!
I was unable to wake up early the following day. In order for me not to be late I decided not to take a bath since it was past 12:00mn when I took a bath. I told myself I am still clean. I wore my pants and clothes as fast as I could then brush my teeth.
When I was about to go, I felt something weird in my stomach. I hurriedly went to the CR but to no avail. I stayed there too long and caused me to be late for work. Wah!!!
I still have a bad stomach as I was writing this...Damn!!!
First, we ate - too early for dinner, too heavy for merienda so i dont know what it is called.
The foods: Lechon Baboy, Sugpo (Big Shrimps), Calamares, Alimango and Talaba.
The Booze: Just 10 case of San Mig Light.
It was just around five in the afternoon when we started the session. There was nothing to do except for some chit-chat with no particular topic. Some of us slept - too tired of swimming. Mac and I listen to some music from his phone. There is very little to do - kind of boring.
Until...the videoke machine arrived. Then the party started to become lively just like what a party should be like. All of us picked a song except for manang Angie. Well, I did not pick mine, they just gave me the songs that they want me to sing - the first one being "the past". Hehehe!!!
It was sunday night so I am controlling my alcohol intake so I can attend the toolbox meeting the day after and a least not be late. I am still able to gulped 7 SMLs, I think that is moderate enough compared to Mac's more or less than 14 bottles - including 3 straight bottoms up in his last bottles).
Mac was really drunk that when he got a hold of the microphone, he never wants to let it go. He never want others to sing. He also showers us with his beers that prompted me to go out of the hut. It was kind of shameful what he's been doing since our PIC (boss) and her GF is with us.
We went home past 11:00pm. Mac is still very drunk that he is already shouting inside the Crosswind (we're with PIC). When we got off the car, he even punched the back door of the car and I think PIC kind of made a remark like PI for what mac has done. It is fortunate that he was able to keep his cool - maybe because his GF is there to calm him.
When we got home, I immediately went to bath. I have not yet taken a bath since the day before and there are salts in my skin. I havent even rinsed myself after the snorkling. The others went to sleep. They're like yucky - to sleep with all the salts still in their skin. Hahaha!!!
I was unable to wake up early the following day. In order for me not to be late I decided not to take a bath since it was past 12:00mn when I took a bath. I told myself I am still clean. I wore my pants and clothes as fast as I could then brush my teeth.
When I was about to go, I felt something weird in my stomach. I hurriedly went to the CR but to no avail. I stayed there too long and caused me to be late for work. Wah!!!
I still have a bad stomach as I was writing this...Damn!!!
Monday, May 26, 2008
Island Hopping and Snorkling
Firts, we gathered in front of Royal Park Hotel and wait for the boat. Call time - 9:00am. We went there at around 9:30am. Hahaha!!! I am with our PIC (the Boss) so it doesn't matter. But we got off to the boat at around 10:00am (not because it is late - Lennart was).
Side Story:
Lennart is one of the first to rise up on that morning. He needs to because he has to buy some souvenirs for his family and he needs to give it to his acquaintance who happens to be here and whom I think will be leaving early that day (not sure). He told us that the reason why he's late was because he thought that the boat will pick us somewhere and that Royal Park was just a meeting place and not where we will be getting on the boat. He told us that he was already waiting for us for quite some time now in another boat station. He was already calling me on my phone unfortunately I didn't brought it with me.
So we start the hop. We first tour the front beach towards shangri'la resort then to Puca Beach, Ilig-iligan beach, Bulabog and then Tambisaan. We stopped in Tambisaan. This is the first snorkling site in front of crocodile island.
I already experienced snorkling twice - first with you and then second without you and you know and your not happy and so it started. In the first two experience, we did not bring any food for the fish. This time we did. It was really different. There were too many fish now. All of them gather in front of your face to eat the food you brought. Hahaha!!! So cool!!! Unfortunately, we have no underwater camera. That is why I intend to do it again with YOU with an underwater camera...and with YOU!!!
We spent almost an hour snorkling before all of us was starving. We prepared for this Eat-All-You can lunch. We did not take any breakfast. I was even unable to take dinner the night before.
The foods: (Not much) Veggies, Pork and Chicken Barbeque, Grilled Bangus, Shrimps plus watermelon and banana. I had everything except for the veggies.
And then we set off to another island...Crystal Cove.
At Crystal Cove:
Here you have to pay 150 per person for the entrance fee. Expensive but maybe worth it. There are many sheds, kind of huts for picnics. I think that there are even rooms if you wish to stay for the night. There were two caves where you can swim. It was really cool. I think I have pics of it. I'll just ask manang Angie to share it with us. Hehehe!!!
I think that the boatmen are tired enough and wants the tour to stop that is why they frightened us saying that they spotted a seasnake at the third snorkling site. So in more or less than 15 minutes we're off again to our drop off site which is puca beach - to our own kubo where our night party will be held.
Side Story:
Lennart is one of the first to rise up on that morning. He needs to because he has to buy some souvenirs for his family and he needs to give it to his acquaintance who happens to be here and whom I think will be leaving early that day (not sure). He told us that the reason why he's late was because he thought that the boat will pick us somewhere and that Royal Park was just a meeting place and not where we will be getting on the boat. He told us that he was already waiting for us for quite some time now in another boat station. He was already calling me on my phone unfortunately I didn't brought it with me.
So we start the hop. We first tour the front beach towards shangri'la resort then to Puca Beach, Ilig-iligan beach, Bulabog and then Tambisaan. We stopped in Tambisaan. This is the first snorkling site in front of crocodile island.
I already experienced snorkling twice - first with you and then second without you and you know and your not happy and so it started. In the first two experience, we did not bring any food for the fish. This time we did. It was really different. There were too many fish now. All of them gather in front of your face to eat the food you brought. Hahaha!!! So cool!!! Unfortunately, we have no underwater camera. That is why I intend to do it again with YOU with an underwater camera...and with YOU!!!
We spent almost an hour snorkling before all of us was starving. We prepared for this Eat-All-You can lunch. We did not take any breakfast. I was even unable to take dinner the night before.
The foods: (Not much) Veggies, Pork and Chicken Barbeque, Grilled Bangus, Shrimps plus watermelon and banana. I had everything except for the veggies.
And then we set off to another island...Crystal Cove.
At Crystal Cove:
Here you have to pay 150 per person for the entrance fee. Expensive but maybe worth it. There are many sheds, kind of huts for picnics. I think that there are even rooms if you wish to stay for the night. There were two caves where you can swim. It was really cool. I think I have pics of it. I'll just ask manang Angie to share it with us. Hehehe!!!
There were two more snorkling sites after crystal cove but it is just like the first one. No! Less Fish because we no longer have breads as fish foods. The second site has more sea urchins and the third site has blue starfish.
I think that the boatmen are tired enough and wants the tour to stop that is why they frightened us saying that they spotted a seasnake at the third snorkling site. So in more or less than 15 minutes we're off again to our drop off site which is puca beach - to our own kubo where our night party will be held.
Project Outing
As I've said before, I am working here in Boracay - an out-of-town project. So it is most likely that we will miss a lot of things done in the main office such as, seminars, parties (christmas party), birthdays and especially company outings. Fortunately, our boss knows that and he is so considerate that he gave us enough budget for us to conduct our own project outing.
So how is a projected outing in Boracay? Have any idea? What about going to beach and have a picnic...nah!!! Sort of we've been doing that for more than a year now. Go to a bar and drink...nah!!! Done that almost every week. So what is there left to do...
Aha!!!
Ride a banana boat...nah!!! most of my co-workers are on their retirement stage...
Parasail...nah!!! not because its expensive but most likely same reason as the first...
Jet Ski...nah!!! same above...
What's left?
Island Hopping? Snorkling? Island hopping and snorkling plus eat all you can buffet lunch. Yup!!! That's what we did. That is something that both the old and young ones can and will enjoy doing.
So how is a projected outing in Boracay? Have any idea? What about going to beach and have a picnic...nah!!! Sort of we've been doing that for more than a year now. Go to a bar and drink...nah!!! Done that almost every week. So what is there left to do...
Aha!!!
Ride a banana boat...nah!!! most of my co-workers are on their retirement stage...
Parasail...nah!!! not because its expensive but most likely same reason as the first...
Jet Ski...nah!!! same above...
What's left?
Island Hopping? Snorkling? Island hopping and snorkling plus eat all you can buffet lunch. Yup!!! That's what we did. That is something that both the old and young ones can and will enjoy doing.
This One is Mine
I post the song first and the song is more likely to be about me and least like you. Let me have this one please. I am not starting a fight here. I am begging. This one is mine...
Saturday, May 24, 2008
Home - Daughtry
I'm staring out into the night,
Trying to hide the pain.
I'm going to the place where love
And feeling good don't ever cost a thing.
And the pain you feel's a different kind of pain.
I'm going home,
To the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old
So I'm going home.
Well I'm going home.
The miles are getting longer, it seems,
The closer I get to you.
I've not always been the best man or friend for you.
But your love, remains true.
And I don't know why.
You always seem to give me another try.
So I'm going home,
To the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old.
Be careful what you wish for,
'Cause you just might get it all.
You just might get it all,
And then some you don't want.
Be careful what you wish for,
'Cause you just might get it all.
You just might get it all, yeah.
Oh, well I'm going home,
To the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old.
I said these places and these faces are getting old.
So I'm going home.
I'm going home.
Trying to hide the pain.
I'm going to the place where love
And feeling good don't ever cost a thing.
And the pain you feel's a different kind of pain.
I'm going home,
To the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old
So I'm going home.
Well I'm going home.
The miles are getting longer, it seems,
The closer I get to you.
I've not always been the best man or friend for you.
But your love, remains true.
And I don't know why.
You always seem to give me another try.
So I'm going home,
To the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old.
Be careful what you wish for,
'Cause you just might get it all.
You just might get it all,
And then some you don't want.
Be careful what you wish for,
'Cause you just might get it all.
You just might get it all, yeah.
Oh, well I'm going home,
To the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old.
I said these places and these faces are getting old.
So I'm going home.
I'm going home.
Absent
I was absent yesterday. Drunk! I gulped 7 SML the night before. The most I had in weeks. We finished past 1:00am. I was having severe headache when I woke up at 7:10am. Whoah!!! I was late for work. I tried to get up but I am realy feeling sick. I decided to just sleep since my other 3 roommates is also sleeping. I thought that I can just go to work after lunch.
I woke up again at around 9:00am. Can't sleep anymore. My headache sucks bigtime. I just watched the Boston-Detroit game which Detroit won. I really want to watched that game badly even if it was hard for me to even glance at the TV. Ronie suggested that we just asked the katulong to cook tinola for us for lunch.
Lunchtime came. Mac and Henry have already bathed. Ronie had not. I, cant even got up in bed. I tried and went to the kitchen. Sat on the chair and had some tinola soup. I cant eat rice. I tried to eat some chicken. After having some, I began to feel hard in breathing and then waaahhh...I vomited. Twice!!! Whooh!!!
Just want to sleep all day and so I did.
I woke up again at around 9:00am. Can't sleep anymore. My headache sucks bigtime. I just watched the Boston-Detroit game which Detroit won. I really want to watched that game badly even if it was hard for me to even glance at the TV. Ronie suggested that we just asked the katulong to cook tinola for us for lunch.
Lunchtime came. Mac and Henry have already bathed. Ronie had not. I, cant even got up in bed. I tried and went to the kitchen. Sat on the chair and had some tinola soup. I cant eat rice. I tried to eat some chicken. After having some, I began to feel hard in breathing and then waaahhh...I vomited. Twice!!! Whooh!!!
Just want to sleep all day and so I did.
Thursday, May 22, 2008
Feelings
Not happy nor sad
I feel free
but not complete...
Relaxed, not worried
drained and wasted
- uninspired...
I feel free
but not complete...
Relaxed, not worried
drained and wasted
- uninspired...
I do not know...
I intended to write something now but I just dont know what it is....
I was watching videos in youtube. Videos of songs featured in Q.E.D. I want to have an answers to all those songs but I just cant find the words to say. I want to write something but I think that I should not...it may only make matters worse.
I just wish that time just pass by so fast and I forget everything...but it is not like that. I dont want to forget anything, and I dont want to be forgotten. I wish the time runs so fast, so fast that we wont notice how many days we've missed, how many hours have passed and maybe when finally we meet again it would feel as if it was just like yesterday...yesterday when everything was just fine...everything seems so strong...everything seems so nice...and that we're only waiting for the time until we...i hope it is still there.
I was watching videos in youtube. Videos of songs featured in Q.E.D. I want to have an answers to all those songs but I just cant find the words to say. I want to write something but I think that I should not...it may only make matters worse.
I just wish that time just pass by so fast and I forget everything...but it is not like that. I dont want to forget anything, and I dont want to be forgotten. I wish the time runs so fast, so fast that we wont notice how many days we've missed, how many hours have passed and maybe when finally we meet again it would feel as if it was just like yesterday...yesterday when everything was just fine...everything seems so strong...everything seems so nice...and that we're only waiting for the time until we...i hope it is still there.
Q.E.D. is Back
I aam not dreaming. It was there and then it was not, but now it's back. It's back. The author just organized her post but it is really there.
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
Soulja Boy Dance
Yesterday, after work at around 6:30pm, mac and lennart is watching this dance instruction video of Soulja Boy for "Crank That Superman". Then everyone else (four of us except henry) became curious, and also watched the video. Then all of us became eager to learn the steps and so we patiently wait for youtube completely play the video (the internet here in our office kinda sucks - superslow). Then we followed the steps and dance along with soulja boy...
Yoooooouuuuuuuuuuuuuuu.........................
Yoooooouuuuuuuuuuuuuuu.........................
Was it a Dream?
I read a Blog a while ago entitled Q.E.D. But after some hours when I checked on that very same Blog, the post was gone. Am I dreaming of having read that or is it really there and the author decided to delete it.
But why?
Should have copied it...
But why?
Should have copied it...
Detroit Lost
The Detroit Pistons (my favorite team) and the Boston Celtics squared off with one another in T.D. Banknorth Garden - home of the Celtics. The pistons, lost the game 88 - 79 and the celtics took a 1 - 0 series lead. Nothing to worry. The series just started. I have full faith in my Pistons that they are going to come back stronger for game two. Anyway, the real game starts when the series shifts to The Palace of Auburn Hill - Home of the Pistons. If they lose there, that would make me worry but until then I am very much comfortable. Hahaha!!!
Deeeettttrrrroiiiiiitttttttttttt!!!!!!!!!!!
BaaaaassssskkkkkeeeetttttBaaaaaallllllllll!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1111
Deeeettttrrrroiiiiiitttttttttttt!!!!!!!!!!!
BaaaaassssskkkkkeeeetttttBaaaaaallllllllll!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1111
Poker and Tong-Its - The Aftermath
I didn't know what time it was when we finish playing poker. I thought it was still early cause I am not yet sleepy that time nor are the other players. Maybe I was just hyped by my win streaks (Hahaha!) that is why I have no sense of time.
Suddenly while playing Tong-Its I felt a rumbling in my stomach. Man, I was hungry. And so I asked them if they want to eat. If they want to go out to eat. All of them answered "gabi na pare". Ha? I wondered? What time is it, I asked. One answered, its already past 2:00am. Wah!!! I couldn't believe it. I felt as if it was only 10:00PM. In disbelief, I grab my phone and look for the time myself. Wah!!! Its true. I think it was about 2:15am that time. Ronie suggested that we just finish the game and eat at Andok's. The game won't be finished until 1 player wins consecutively. No one wants to give it just like that and so the game stiffened up. The winner changes everytime. And the winner doesn't even have the chance of winning consecutively because there are times when the winner's hand is unplayable, no chance of winning or just simply the other player's hands is just so good. It took us 40 minutes to finish the game and maybe about 5 or 6 more rounds. We finish some monutes before 3:00am.
And so we go to Andoks to eat our favorite. Sizzling Sisig - you should try it, it's really good. I am not sure If Andok's in manila serves the same sisig but here in Bora. its the best.
We ordered two sisig, courtesy of the mega winners - me and Ronie. Both of us contributed 150pesos. And the excess was payed by mac and lennart. Henry did not join us. He stayed home to sleep or do something else - I do not know.
Sisig takes about 10 to minutes to cook but I think that we've waited longer. Mac is so hungry that he started eating his rice without the sisig. Then our order came!!! We are very eager to start eating when we noticed that the waiter only served one order of sisig. We asked the lady cashier where is the other order and so she asked their cook. To her surprise and our demise, their cook only prepared one order. And so we waited for several minutes more. Wah!!! We're so Bitin.
We finished eating at around 3:30am and arrived home 10 minutes before 4:00am. It was a Monday and we have work in less than 3 hrs. All of us went to sleep trying to have as much as 2hrs of sleep.
We have to wake up at 6:00am (latest) so we could attend the daily toolbox meeting. I woke up at around that time, but my head aches - side effects of lack of sleep. I look at the others and they are still sleeping. Only henry was awake and even he was late. I got up at around 6:30am - the time our toolbox meeting starts. When I went outside the room, I saw Henry. He was still there already prepared to go to site. I am not. I just took my toothbrush and brushed my teeth. Wash my face. Went back to my room. And wore my pants and uniform. Yes, that day I did not took a bath (the whole day I didn't because I was so busy at work that it was already 8:00pm i finished working - no more time to take a bath).
All of us (young engineers) was not able to attend the toolbox meeting and so our PIC was disappointed that it became the topic of the Staff Meeting the afternoon of that same day. We are really ashamed of what happened. Hahaha!!! But does not regret any of it.
I think that I still have the side effects of that forgetable night. I am very sleepy as of the moment while I am writing this blog. Hahaha!!! I hope that we finish early in our concrete pouring so I can go home early and rest.
By the way, I still am not able to attend toolbox meeting since that day. Hahaha!!!
Suddenly while playing Tong-Its I felt a rumbling in my stomach. Man, I was hungry. And so I asked them if they want to eat. If they want to go out to eat. All of them answered "gabi na pare". Ha? I wondered? What time is it, I asked. One answered, its already past 2:00am. Wah!!! I couldn't believe it. I felt as if it was only 10:00PM. In disbelief, I grab my phone and look for the time myself. Wah!!! Its true. I think it was about 2:15am that time. Ronie suggested that we just finish the game and eat at Andok's. The game won't be finished until 1 player wins consecutively. No one wants to give it just like that and so the game stiffened up. The winner changes everytime. And the winner doesn't even have the chance of winning consecutively because there are times when the winner's hand is unplayable, no chance of winning or just simply the other player's hands is just so good. It took us 40 minutes to finish the game and maybe about 5 or 6 more rounds. We finish some monutes before 3:00am.
And so we go to Andoks to eat our favorite. Sizzling Sisig - you should try it, it's really good. I am not sure If Andok's in manila serves the same sisig but here in Bora. its the best.
We ordered two sisig, courtesy of the mega winners - me and Ronie. Both of us contributed 150pesos. And the excess was payed by mac and lennart. Henry did not join us. He stayed home to sleep or do something else - I do not know.
Sisig takes about 10 to minutes to cook but I think that we've waited longer. Mac is so hungry that he started eating his rice without the sisig. Then our order came!!! We are very eager to start eating when we noticed that the waiter only served one order of sisig. We asked the lady cashier where is the other order and so she asked their cook. To her surprise and our demise, their cook only prepared one order. And so we waited for several minutes more. Wah!!! We're so Bitin.
We finished eating at around 3:30am and arrived home 10 minutes before 4:00am. It was a Monday and we have work in less than 3 hrs. All of us went to sleep trying to have as much as 2hrs of sleep.
We have to wake up at 6:00am (latest) so we could attend the daily toolbox meeting. I woke up at around that time, but my head aches - side effects of lack of sleep. I look at the others and they are still sleeping. Only henry was awake and even he was late. I got up at around 6:30am - the time our toolbox meeting starts. When I went outside the room, I saw Henry. He was still there already prepared to go to site. I am not. I just took my toothbrush and brushed my teeth. Wash my face. Went back to my room. And wore my pants and uniform. Yes, that day I did not took a bath (the whole day I didn't because I was so busy at work that it was already 8:00pm i finished working - no more time to take a bath).
All of us (young engineers) was not able to attend the toolbox meeting and so our PIC was disappointed that it became the topic of the Staff Meeting the afternoon of that same day. We are really ashamed of what happened. Hahaha!!! But does not regret any of it.
I think that I still have the side effects of that forgetable night. I am very sleepy as of the moment while I am writing this blog. Hahaha!!! I hope that we finish early in our concrete pouring so I can go home early and rest.
By the way, I still am not able to attend toolbox meeting since that day. Hahaha!!!
Streak Doesn't End
Wah!!! My streak of bad luck does not end, Just a couple of minutes ago I called the batching plant to ask for the mobilization of pumpcrete here on site. Akel, their PIC told me that it is OK, the pumpcrete is operational and that it can come right away however 3 out of 4 transit mixer has broken down. What will I do? Wah!!! Anyways!!! Not so bad luck at all. I can still pour concrete on a very long interval.
Hayz...
Hayz...
I am Jynx
I don't know why but ever since I was assigned to handle the structural activities of our projects, a lot of misfortunes happened such as these:
The bad luck is that, while having that problem that I was saying, the pumpcrete was clogged by large stones. Enough to make me too worried because....wah. Nothing!!! Its so bad...
I hope this streak of bad luck will come to an end...
- Formworks of Columns got broken that resulted into a lot of concrete to leak out
- Very heavy rains whenever I have a schedule to pour on slab
- Pumpcrete unavailable (break down or at neighbor project)
- Batching Plant broke down
- Generator for Bar Bender not working
- A lot more...including what happens in my personal life
The bad luck is that, while having that problem that I was saying, the pumpcrete was clogged by large stones. Enough to make me too worried because....wah. Nothing!!! Its so bad...
I hope this streak of bad luck will come to an end...
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
Poker and Tong-Its Part Two (minus the Illusions)
When we woke up the day after, It was a sunday. We are kind of, Aahhh, let's sleep again. Wah!!! We dont feel like getting up and so we just stayed in our room, sleeping until almost lunchtime. All of us except for macmac (he had to go to site) stayed home and didn't even go out. Actually, Lennart with our Katulong came out to buy some ingredients for our lunch.
After lunchtime, we did nothing. Aah!!! We watched "One More Chance" pala. Hehehe!!! Read my blog about it!! Hahaha!!
Again, we're bored of doing nothing. Some of us sleep again. I did not. I just played with my Pokemon using my N70. Hahaha!!! But all of us suddenly became hungry and I suggested that we should just order some Yellow Cab Pizza, and so we did. 18 inches Hawaiian Pizza with Baked Potato Halves courtesy of Henry.
After eating and filling our stomachs, all of us come up with one great idea, let's all play Poker!!!
Poker and Tong-Its Part Two...
Mac is already back from site when we ordered the pizza so all of us is present for our second poker session in less than 24hrs. Hahaha!!!
At first I thought that the luck I had yesterday is gone because I have streaks of losing. Maybe around 6 to ten rounds before I win and when I win it's only once or the pot is too small. Too long the streak has been ( I think that its more or less than 20 rounds) that the box where I use to place all of my coins (money) that I used for betting was emptied and I need to take some money (paper bills) out of my wallet. Still the losing streak does not end and the money I still have is running out fast. I think that I was bunkrupt and that I just use credits to bet. Yes, its either I borrow coins from others or just asks whoever wins the round that I'll just pay him later and he just have to list all of my credits. Hahaha!!! I was almost depressed that I no longer want to continue playing.
Until in a change of luck I finally won. It started a streak of winning. The first was a large pot. Then another. And the 3 times. I told them that if I won again I would be just like the Utah Jazz (in their desperate attempt to survive the lakers in Game 6 of NBA West Conf Semis burried four consecutive three point shots), and I really did. I won that round, that was the fourth. Again, good hands. Good cards. Since winning consecutively will give you more money for betting and maybe erase your credits and pay your debts, I am no longer afraid to lose. So in the fifth round I just bet again as if nothing matters. I joked that 4 consecutive 3s is possible, a fifth one is incredible and so does winning in Poker. But when all the cards was layed down, you're right. I won!!! Whooh!!! I thought to myself I'm better than the Jazz...anyways I am a pistons fan and they're in the Conf Finals unlike the Jazz who were eliminated in that game. Hahaha!!!
The streak, of winning continues, and I am no loner losing many rounds. I no longer bet desperately and I just trust my instincts when betting resulting to a win.
Ronie and I are the only ones winning and the other threes have already exhausted their limits (allowable money to gamble). But still they want to play and so they just asks for credits or borrow money and they extended their limits. The first one to opt out of the game was macmac because he needs to call his girlfriend who is I think already mad at that time. Mac has also lost a lot of money at the time so its just good to give up and try again when your luck is up.
At that point the money in front of me is more than 500. Subtracting the amount I had when we first play, I think that my winnings is more than 300 pesos maybe even more than 400. Since it was only four of us left and the other two also running low in budget, we decided to change game. From Poket to Tong-Its. four way Tong-Its. Hahaha!!!
After lunchtime, we did nothing. Aah!!! We watched "One More Chance" pala. Hehehe!!! Read my blog about it!! Hahaha!!
Again, we're bored of doing nothing. Some of us sleep again. I did not. I just played with my Pokemon using my N70. Hahaha!!! But all of us suddenly became hungry and I suggested that we should just order some Yellow Cab Pizza, and so we did. 18 inches Hawaiian Pizza with Baked Potato Halves courtesy of Henry.
After eating and filling our stomachs, all of us come up with one great idea, let's all play Poker!!!
Poker and Tong-Its Part Two...
Mac is already back from site when we ordered the pizza so all of us is present for our second poker session in less than 24hrs. Hahaha!!!
At first I thought that the luck I had yesterday is gone because I have streaks of losing. Maybe around 6 to ten rounds before I win and when I win it's only once or the pot is too small. Too long the streak has been ( I think that its more or less than 20 rounds) that the box where I use to place all of my coins (money) that I used for betting was emptied and I need to take some money (paper bills) out of my wallet. Still the losing streak does not end and the money I still have is running out fast. I think that I was bunkrupt and that I just use credits to bet. Yes, its either I borrow coins from others or just asks whoever wins the round that I'll just pay him later and he just have to list all of my credits. Hahaha!!! I was almost depressed that I no longer want to continue playing.
Until in a change of luck I finally won. It started a streak of winning. The first was a large pot. Then another. And the 3 times. I told them that if I won again I would be just like the Utah Jazz (in their desperate attempt to survive the lakers in Game 6 of NBA West Conf Semis burried four consecutive three point shots), and I really did. I won that round, that was the fourth. Again, good hands. Good cards. Since winning consecutively will give you more money for betting and maybe erase your credits and pay your debts, I am no longer afraid to lose. So in the fifth round I just bet again as if nothing matters. I joked that 4 consecutive 3s is possible, a fifth one is incredible and so does winning in Poker. But when all the cards was layed down, you're right. I won!!! Whooh!!! I thought to myself I'm better than the Jazz...anyways I am a pistons fan and they're in the Conf Finals unlike the Jazz who were eliminated in that game. Hahaha!!!
The streak, of winning continues, and I am no loner losing many rounds. I no longer bet desperately and I just trust my instincts when betting resulting to a win.
Ronie and I are the only ones winning and the other threes have already exhausted their limits (allowable money to gamble). But still they want to play and so they just asks for credits or borrow money and they extended their limits. The first one to opt out of the game was macmac because he needs to call his girlfriend who is I think already mad at that time. Mac has also lost a lot of money at the time so its just good to give up and try again when your luck is up.
At that point the money in front of me is more than 500. Subtracting the amount I had when we first play, I think that my winnings is more than 300 pesos maybe even more than 400. Since it was only four of us left and the other two also running low in budget, we decided to change game. From Poket to Tong-Its. four way Tong-Its. Hahaha!!!
Poker and Tong-Its Plus some Illusions
We are so bored here in Boracay that when we have long hours of doing nothing, just like last weekend, we resort to gambling. Yup! Its gambling. We play poker and tong-its and since it involves money as bet and pot it will be considered as gambling. But dont worry we are only small time gamblers just paying 1,2,3 peso for tong-its and having a 10peso limit for a bet for poker. Kind of not like a poker but some other game. Well anyways the rule is still the same except that the betting has limits so it still is Poker. We enforced limits because there was an incident one time when we imposed no limits and the pot reach upto more than a thousand and in that game I lost 500pesos. Whooh!!! But even if we are just small time gamblers, some of us still lost upto 500pesos in just 1 sitting. Wahaha!!!
So last saturday, it was pre-arranged that we are going to play some cards after work since we have no other things to do. We cant go out because of the bad weather. We decided to also have some drinks. Something unusual and not just resort to San Mig Lights. So we asked our friend Ate Stella to make some Illusion Shakers for us. We contributed 100 pesos for each person and macmac added some more for pulutans and the liquors to be mixed.
The Mix: I dont know about the ratio of the mix. I only knew what brand of liquors she used. they bought 1 or two (not sure) bottles of Toska Vodka, 1 bottle of Blue Curacao, 1 bottle of Triple Sec (also Curacao) and some pineapple juice.
And so we have our Illusion shaker. We are already playing poker (all five of us) when the mix was done. And so we have 1 pitcher first. it was my first time to drink that. I think it was only Henry and Ronie who have already tasted it at a bar near us (expensive). Since Henry was always our card dealer when we play poker, I decided to be the Tanggero (sort of like the one who gives shots to everyone).
Wooh!!! I think it was kind of like my lucky day because money is piling up in front of me because I am winning. Winning at most 5 (maybe 6) straight times and doing it not only once but several times.
Lennart on the other hand is not really used to drinking, and for him it seems that the cycle of giving shots is very fast. He feels as if he just took a shot and then it was his turn once more. Well, it is only 5 of us and we are really fast in drinking it since is only a small shot glss and that it is not that intoxicating. But not really that fast since I take breaks in giving shots if my cards are good and want to concentrate on playing. Also, Lennart is even hiding the shot glass after his turn so it is not really that fast.
When we emptied the pitcher, I thought like "Yun na yun!". But I was kind of getting dizzy at that time since I was the tanggero and always needs to turn my heads in a lot of directions. Lennart is also complaining that he had enough. I thought that we are done. But to my surprise, they asked for more. Nyak!!! I asked ate stella if there are still some mix and she told me there are a lot more. So she made some more for us and when we finished our second pitcher. Man, we're all drunk. Drunk but tolerable unlike when you finished 5 to 8 bottles of beer but still we all know that the foams laying on our floor is our only friend.
It was not yet that late, I think it was just past 10pm when we finish but all of us are so sleepy. I was kind of satisfied for the night. Drunk and rich (I won about less than 300pesos - should have been more had we not played tong-its because I was unable to make a Hits).
And So we slept.
To be continued...
So last saturday, it was pre-arranged that we are going to play some cards after work since we have no other things to do. We cant go out because of the bad weather. We decided to also have some drinks. Something unusual and not just resort to San Mig Lights. So we asked our friend Ate Stella to make some Illusion Shakers for us. We contributed 100 pesos for each person and macmac added some more for pulutans and the liquors to be mixed.
The Mix: I dont know about the ratio of the mix. I only knew what brand of liquors she used. they bought 1 or two (not sure) bottles of Toska Vodka, 1 bottle of Blue Curacao, 1 bottle of Triple Sec (also Curacao) and some pineapple juice.
And so we have our Illusion shaker. We are already playing poker (all five of us) when the mix was done. And so we have 1 pitcher first. it was my first time to drink that. I think it was only Henry and Ronie who have already tasted it at a bar near us (expensive). Since Henry was always our card dealer when we play poker, I decided to be the Tanggero (sort of like the one who gives shots to everyone).
Wooh!!! I think it was kind of like my lucky day because money is piling up in front of me because I am winning. Winning at most 5 (maybe 6) straight times and doing it not only once but several times.
Lennart on the other hand is not really used to drinking, and for him it seems that the cycle of giving shots is very fast. He feels as if he just took a shot and then it was his turn once more. Well, it is only 5 of us and we are really fast in drinking it since is only a small shot glss and that it is not that intoxicating. But not really that fast since I take breaks in giving shots if my cards are good and want to concentrate on playing. Also, Lennart is even hiding the shot glass after his turn so it is not really that fast.
When we emptied the pitcher, I thought like "Yun na yun!". But I was kind of getting dizzy at that time since I was the tanggero and always needs to turn my heads in a lot of directions. Lennart is also complaining that he had enough. I thought that we are done. But to my surprise, they asked for more. Nyak!!! I asked ate stella if there are still some mix and she told me there are a lot more. So she made some more for us and when we finished our second pitcher. Man, we're all drunk. Drunk but tolerable unlike when you finished 5 to 8 bottles of beer but still we all know that the foams laying on our floor is our only friend.
It was not yet that late, I think it was just past 10pm when we finish but all of us are so sleepy. I was kind of satisfied for the night. Drunk and rich (I won about less than 300pesos - should have been more had we not played tong-its because I was unable to make a Hits).
And So we slept.
To be continued...
Monday, May 19, 2008
One More Chance
Yesterday, It was a sunday, my con-engineers and I watched this movie of John Lloyd Cruz and Bea Alonzo entitled "One More Chance". It was four of us, all male, and it was our first time to watch that movie. The DVD was brought by Macmac when he went to manila upon the request of Henry. Macmac was the only one who have seen the movie. He's not around that day because it was his turn to go to the Construction Site (It is required that at least one engineer should be present on site during sundays if there is an operation) but still we decided to watch the moviesince he has already seen it. We had no DVD Player that day so we just have to use my laptop (notebook) to play the DVD. The volume of the DVD is not that good, and since it was just a laptop, it is hard hear the dialogues. So we watch and listen closely and as much as possible, in silence.
I think that it is really unusual for four guys to watch romantic (especially Tagalog) movies. We are making sounds like yeeehhhh!!! uuuuuuyyyy!!! when the scene is kind of mushy. We also mimic how they cry when the scene is sad and we laugh at ourselves because we're doing all those crazy stuffs.
When the scene becomes really serious, we are really silent, trying to listen to all the lines that the actors are saying. Reflecting on every words they say and maybe relating it to our own experiences.
I was doing that. Reflecting. Trying to put myself in the situation of Popoy (the lead male character). Yes. We are not the same in anyways but I think that I am in a situation they're at.
Yes. I just had a breakup with my girlfriend. I am not really sure about it being a breakup. We haven't talked for a week now. today is exactly one week since we've last talk. I am not going to go on the details on how and why it happened, it just happened.
There was a scene there, the last part of the movie, when they realized that they still both love each other. However, they did not went back for each other. Popoy had to leave to work abroad. He says that he needs it to forget the pain he suffered and return to his old self. His old self, when he first love Basha (her girlfriend). When he knew nothing but lving Basha. No hatred, no pain.
I think I am in that state of mind as he is. Ever since I was assigned here in boracay, my girlfriend and I experienced countless fightings over very simple things. Very petty issues. That is never resolved. Even the simplest issues remains unresolved. What happens is that we just make peace (for a while), not really solving the issues just forgetting that it happened. I think that we are just making peace because we just cant stand not being with each other. Thinking that it is right and that it is hard if we are not in good terms with each other especially now that we're far apart.
Whenever we had a fight, I always say that it will never be solved, and we should just accept the fact that maybe we are not good for each other. That maybe it is better for us to break-up. However, I am not that kind of person who would ask for a break-up. i dont believe in it as a solution. It is my principle that when something's not right with the relationship, the two of you should solve it together. But for some unknown reason, I keep on saying that every time we had a fight. She never liked the idea, and so eventhough she was the one who is very much angry at me for whatever I did, she will also be the first to reconcile. But I think that what we are doing is just temporarily stop the fight. She is not really forgiving me and I am not changing for better.
I still repeat what i did wrong and she will be mad. I will ask for a break-up but she doesn't want. She will make the first move to reconcile but in truth she never forgive nor forget. We will be ok for some time until another very simple issue or conflict arise and the vicious cycle continues.
It has been like this for quite some time now. And in our last fight,I asked again for a break-up. This time I told her that I really mean it and that I will really do it no matter what. I dont know actually what I am doing at that time and why I said that. But I know that it is really what I feel and I think that what I feel is right.
It has been a week now since we have last talked to each other. This is the longest that we have not talked since our first breakup in 2005.
She just emailed me twice. One is an explanation about the incident that caused our fight. Another is a forwarded story. I, on the other hand, haven't done any move. Not because I dont want to make peace and resolve the problem but because I think that I really need some space. Maybe I need to become an astronaut for a while.
Just like in the movie, I believe that what I really need is time and space for me to realize how I really love her. What I really feel for her. The same feeling when I first told her that I love her. The same feeling when I was still close to her (when I was in Manila I mean) and when I am very sweet to her. How I want to treat her like a princess. How I dont want to hurt her. Those things are lost and I need that time to recover most if not all of those that was lost.
How long? I dont know. I really dont. And it is scary for me. I am scared that maybe when I finally got everything that was lost, she would no longer accept me, that she has lost her feelings for me. I dont know.
I want to ask her to wait for me. But I dont want to be unfair. I want her to be free. At least for the time that I was gone. It could be months or maybe years and I am not sure if those feelings are really going to come back. I know I still love her. But I think love alone is not enough.
Maybe when time here in Boracay is up. When finally Our project here is over. When finally Ill be back home. Maybe that is the time for me to be back to her (if she still wants me).
I hope it comes soon.
I think that it is really unusual for four guys to watch romantic (especially Tagalog) movies. We are making sounds like yeeehhhh!!! uuuuuuyyyy!!! when the scene is kind of mushy. We also mimic how they cry when the scene is sad and we laugh at ourselves because we're doing all those crazy stuffs.
When the scene becomes really serious, we are really silent, trying to listen to all the lines that the actors are saying. Reflecting on every words they say and maybe relating it to our own experiences.
I was doing that. Reflecting. Trying to put myself in the situation of Popoy (the lead male character). Yes. We are not the same in anyways but I think that I am in a situation they're at.
Yes. I just had a breakup with my girlfriend. I am not really sure about it being a breakup. We haven't talked for a week now. today is exactly one week since we've last talk. I am not going to go on the details on how and why it happened, it just happened.
There was a scene there, the last part of the movie, when they realized that they still both love each other. However, they did not went back for each other. Popoy had to leave to work abroad. He says that he needs it to forget the pain he suffered and return to his old self. His old self, when he first love Basha (her girlfriend). When he knew nothing but lving Basha. No hatred, no pain.
I think I am in that state of mind as he is. Ever since I was assigned here in boracay, my girlfriend and I experienced countless fightings over very simple things. Very petty issues. That is never resolved. Even the simplest issues remains unresolved. What happens is that we just make peace (for a while), not really solving the issues just forgetting that it happened. I think that we are just making peace because we just cant stand not being with each other. Thinking that it is right and that it is hard if we are not in good terms with each other especially now that we're far apart.
Whenever we had a fight, I always say that it will never be solved, and we should just accept the fact that maybe we are not good for each other. That maybe it is better for us to break-up. However, I am not that kind of person who would ask for a break-up. i dont believe in it as a solution. It is my principle that when something's not right with the relationship, the two of you should solve it together. But for some unknown reason, I keep on saying that every time we had a fight. She never liked the idea, and so eventhough she was the one who is very much angry at me for whatever I did, she will also be the first to reconcile. But I think that what we are doing is just temporarily stop the fight. She is not really forgiving me and I am not changing for better.
I still repeat what i did wrong and she will be mad. I will ask for a break-up but she doesn't want. She will make the first move to reconcile but in truth she never forgive nor forget. We will be ok for some time until another very simple issue or conflict arise and the vicious cycle continues.
It has been like this for quite some time now. And in our last fight,I asked again for a break-up. This time I told her that I really mean it and that I will really do it no matter what. I dont know actually what I am doing at that time and why I said that. But I know that it is really what I feel and I think that what I feel is right.
It has been a week now since we have last talked to each other. This is the longest that we have not talked since our first breakup in 2005.
She just emailed me twice. One is an explanation about the incident that caused our fight. Another is a forwarded story. I, on the other hand, haven't done any move. Not because I dont want to make peace and resolve the problem but because I think that I really need some space. Maybe I need to become an astronaut for a while.
Just like in the movie, I believe that what I really need is time and space for me to realize how I really love her. What I really feel for her. The same feeling when I first told her that I love her. The same feeling when I was still close to her (when I was in Manila I mean) and when I am very sweet to her. How I want to treat her like a princess. How I dont want to hurt her. Those things are lost and I need that time to recover most if not all of those that was lost.
How long? I dont know. I really dont. And it is scary for me. I am scared that maybe when I finally got everything that was lost, she would no longer accept me, that she has lost her feelings for me. I dont know.
I want to ask her to wait for me. But I dont want to be unfair. I want her to be free. At least for the time that I was gone. It could be months or maybe years and I am not sure if those feelings are really going to come back. I know I still love her. But I think love alone is not enough.
Maybe when time here in Boracay is up. When finally Our project here is over. When finally Ill be back home. Maybe that is the time for me to be back to her (if she still wants me).
I hope it comes soon.
Saturday, May 17, 2008
LBC - Hari ng Padala
I just received today minutes before 4:00 P.M. an LBC package from my girlfriend. My girlfriend and I have a serious misunderstanding as of the moment. I, being too proud, am not willing to be the first one to make amends. I also feel like she doesn't want to although she already sent me an email a day after the fight. I was late in reading it because I have not opened my email for two days since the incident. So I thought that maybe she does not want to make peace and she wants me to be the first one to make a move. Well, I am very much not that kind of person. Not because I dont want to but because I am ashamed of what I have said. I wish I could just take back all the words that I have said but it is not possible. "Death and Life is the power of your tongue" is what I heard in a seminar I attended. I wish I didn't say those words. It should have been easier for me to make the first move even if I still think that it should be her if those words have not been said. What I have said will be carved in her heart and that will leave a mark that will remain a long time if not forever.
I still dont feel like I should make an effort to reconcile. Maybe still mad about what happened. A little. I am just afraid that talking through the phone is not enough to really solve the problem. It will only allows us to mellow and make us feel that everything is alright. But what really happens is that we only make temporary solution to the problem - not make it disappear. The problem is not only about us having a relationship that is complicated. The real problem is within ourselves that affects the way we handle the relationships. I wish I could just snap my finger and everything will be back to normal.
Thanks to the LBC package I learned a little abouthow she feels as of the moment. Thanks to it I felt a little excitement. Some kind of happy feeling. I am a mad man as of now. As in Crazy. So this kind of things will help me mellow, soften my feelings and my as-of-the-moment-stone-cold heart and make me realize how important she is to me and of course how I love her (still).
I just wish she could wait a little more time, maybe longer, but I think that time is really needed for us to evaluate ourselves as a person, as a partner. Realize our mistakes and maybe know where to improve. I hope I do improve. And maybe just to have some time alone, to have fun, to have solitude, to contemplate and to miss each other. I just hope it turns out to be like that and not the other way around.
Things will be fine...soon.
I still dont feel like I should make an effort to reconcile. Maybe still mad about what happened. A little. I am just afraid that talking through the phone is not enough to really solve the problem. It will only allows us to mellow and make us feel that everything is alright. But what really happens is that we only make temporary solution to the problem - not make it disappear. The problem is not only about us having a relationship that is complicated. The real problem is within ourselves that affects the way we handle the relationships. I wish I could just snap my finger and everything will be back to normal.
Thanks to the LBC package I learned a little abouthow she feels as of the moment. Thanks to it I felt a little excitement. Some kind of happy feeling. I am a mad man as of now. As in Crazy. So this kind of things will help me mellow, soften my feelings and my as-of-the-moment-stone-cold heart and make me realize how important she is to me and of course how I love her (still).
I just wish she could wait a little more time, maybe longer, but I think that time is really needed for us to evaluate ourselves as a person, as a partner. Realize our mistakes and maybe know where to improve. I hope I do improve. And maybe just to have some time alone, to have fun, to have solitude, to contemplate and to miss each other. I just hope it turns out to be like that and not the other way around.
Things will be fine...soon.
Makita kang Muli
Makita Kang Muli
Sugar FreeRefrain:
Bawat sandali ng aking buhay
Pagmamahal mo ang aking taglay
San man mapadpad ng hanging
Hindi magbabago aking pagtingin
Pangako natin sa maykapal
Na tayo lamang sa habang buhay
Maghintay..
Ipaglalaban ko ang ating pagibig
Maghintay ka lamang ako’y darating
Pagkat sa isang taong mahal mo
Ng buong puso
Lahat ay gagawin
Makita kang muli, makita kang muli,
Makita kang muli..
Puso’y nagdurusa, nangungulila
Iniisip ka pag nagiisa
Inaalala mga sandali
Nang tayo ay magkapiling
Ikaw ang gabay sa akin tuwina
Ang aking ilaw sa gabing mapanglaw
Tanging ikaw..
Ipaglalaban ko ang ating pagibig
Maghintay ka lamang ako’y darating
Pagkat sa isang taong mahal mo
Ng buong puso
Lahat ay gagawin
Makita kang muli, makita kang muli,
Makita kang muli..
The theme song of Panday...I wish I was kind of like this person who will do everything just see his girl...his love. I am not. I am in a dilemma of going home to be with my family especially the love of my life for even just a couple of days or three and staying here in Boracay to work. It is always hard to plan when to file a vacation leave for I will always be needed here on site. Afraid of leaving my duties to other people's hands and then coming back with almost nothing accomplished during the time that you are away and having somany problems when you comeback for you to solve even if you have no idea whatsoever of what really transpired when you are on vacation. That is the case that I am mostly afraid of.
It is really a pity that I have to choose to stay to work. Always telling myself that it won't be long before my work here is completed and that I will have free time for a vacation. But that may not be good. That short time may be too long especially now that I am experiencing problems with my relationship.
Yup! I have a very bad problem with my relationship as of now. I don't want to solve it just by talking on the phone. I think it is of no use. We've been trying to do that ever since the first problem arised. What happen is that we always agree to just forgive and forget about whatever happened. But what really happens is that we just end up piling all our problems. We are just hiding what we really feel inside hoping that everything will be just fine until we meet again. However, everytime we have conflicts, even the smallest of issue, turns out to be a big problem because the feelings that we hid inside always comes out on that situations and when it does, the feeling is 3 times or more. That is why I always burst in anger. Shouting. Cursing. Saying things I wish I did not. Hurting her in the process.
I hate that even though I have this kind of problem, I still chose to stay.
When will I ever come home...when will I ever have the courage to do what must be done...I am not Panday and I should be a lot better than that.
Maghintay ka lamang...ako'y darating...
Friday, May 16, 2008
Dear Kuya
Dear Kuya: This is a title of a song by sugarfree about someone's older brother working abroad, working overseas. When I first heard of the song, I felt something about it. Something emotional.
Side Story:
I can relate to the song though not because I work abroad but because I work overseas. Yes, i am still here in the Philippines - my country, but I work far away from home. Well, it only takes 45 minutes (by plane) or 3 hrs travel time (by car then by plane) to a maximum of 14hrs (by land then by ship - RORO). However, my company only gives us roundtrip tickets for free every 6 months. That is quite long really... Well, we are allowed to go home for a vacation leave for as much as 3days (too short of a time) provided we are to shoulder all the transportation expenses. And man, that is too expensive. Getting on a plane (roundtrip) will cost you around 3.5k to 7k - almost half of my monthly salary. That is too much for a vacation that will only be for 3days. Damn!!! Taking RORO is much cheaper. Way way cheaper around 2k back and forth. However, in doing so, you will already lose precious time just by travelling. maybe you'll likely to lose half of your 3days leave so it is not worth it. By the way, I forgot to mention where I am. I am working here in Boracay as a Civil Engineer for a Condotel (Condiminium - Hotel). Boracay being the tourist capital of the Philippines has an atmosphere of being in a foreign land. And me being stucked here working for 6 straight months makes me feel like I am really abroad. Hahaha!!!
Anyways lets get back to the topic "Dear Kuya". I wrote this blog because I can really realte to the character in the song referred to as Kuya. I am also a KUYA (means Older/Big Brother). I am a kuya to a younger brother. My brother and I were very close, we have been close since my mother passed away and became even closer when our ATE (Big Sister) got married. There is this incident one time when I was kind of missing my family especially my brother. I, having a personality of not being vocal about my feelings for my family is not so eager to make phone calls or even text messages to ask them how they are doing. To my surprise, my brother texted me and this is what he wrote:
Engineer!hehe.kuya,mzta k nman jan?hehe.galingan mu ha.lam mu ba cpag ku na mgaral ngaun na22kac aku after prelimz.di pla pdeng paeasy2 lng.lam mu b 2wing mganda per4mance ku sa skul kw naiicp ku.hehe.idol kac tlaga kta kuya.hehe.gnun pla tlga un nuh?saya pag filing mu aus ung gngwa mu lalu na s skul.hehe.naiicp ku parang gni2 n rn ung nki2ta ku sau b4.hehe.iba pla tlaga my goal ka.yaan mu gwin ku lhat pra ma2wa c erpats xka ikaw.hehe.sumday mgi2ng proud dn c papa skn kht di gya ng sau.hehe.kuya ingatan mu sarili mu ha.wag k mgaalala ccpagan ku pa tlga!tnx ha
Well, what my brother actually said is that he is doing well in school and it reminds him of how he sees me back then when I was in college (when I am doing great in my academics). That I was kind of like an idol to him.He said that he'll do anything for my father to be proud of him even if not as much as my father was to me.
The truth is, it was me who idolizes my brother. It was my brother who inpires me to excel. It was him who influences me more than I influence him. It was I who is envy of him ever since because he is much better than me in a lot of ways and it was him that really makes my parents proud especially my mom. That is really how I feel back then.
But any person, any KUYA that will receive that kind of message from his brother would certainly feel emotional. He will be proud of himself. Touched by what was said to him. He will feel that all that he has done is being appreciated. He will have self satisfaction.
I never thought that it was how my brother feel about me. All along, I thought that my brother is kind of mad about me. Me being very Bossy at home. Bullying him most of the time. And being so damn moody and very stubborn that I always blame him for the misfortunes that may happen to me. Well, that is me. Somethings just never change or very hard to change.
To my brother, thank you! Thank you for understanding your KUYA! I really appreciate what you told me and I will try my damn best to change my attitude for better.
Here is the Lyrics of the song:
Dear kuya, kumusta ka na dyan?
Anong balita, malamig ba dyan?
Dito mainit, pero kung bumagyo
Para bang lahat ng tubig sa mundo ay nandito
Matagal na rin, mula nang ika'y
Magpasyang subukan ang swerte
At abutin ang iyong mga pangarap sa ibang bansa
Kung saan ikaw ay lagin mag-isa
Kami tuloy dito, nag-aalala
Nasan ka man ngayon
Ano man oras na ika'y may kailangan
Tawag ka lang sa amin
At parang nandito ka na rin
Oo nga pala, kung nasa 'yo pa
Ang checkered na polo ko, sa 'yo na yan
Hanap ka na rin ng maraming mapapaglibangan
Dahil balita ko mahal daw ang sine dyan
Dambuhala raw ang mga pinapakain dyan
Tataba ka malamang
Miss mo na bang magtagalog?
Kuya pag may kumausap sa 'yo
Galingan mong mag-ingles, galingan mo kuya
Reapeat chorus...
Dear kuya, hinahanap ka ni mama at daddy
Sulat ka palagi
Miss ka namin, pati nga kapitbahay nagtatanong
San ka raw nagpunta? San ka raw nagpunta?
Nasan ka na kuya
Reapeat chorus
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